Blues
Feeling rather blues these few days. I'm not under stress at work. Instead my work is pretty smooth with a group of friendly colleagues and a nice Boss to work with.
I felt really bad after finding out facts that I never do. Had a dispute with him last night before each of us turned in with a black face. I felt really bad. And I was crying in my dream. But words are hard to be spoken.
All these while we are talking happily about settling down, saving for our big day, planning etc. But on the other hand, my family problems and me being jobless for 2 months was sucking up most of him finance and he never mention about it. I felt so guilty. And my unreasonable mother was still being so hard to please in all ways. What can I do? What is the best sloution? No one is there to talk to about my problem.
Things at home are seriously getting from bad to worse day after day. And the misunderstanding between my mum and me are getting bigger and bigger. Is money that important when you are poor. Doesn't family love still vlaue more than that? No words to her are pleasing other throwing her with stack and stack of dollar notes now. Her words are piercing my heart time after time. Why can't she face the mirror and see how much she had changed over these year? I am really tired of tolerating her attitude. Aches in my heart are increasing. I am so tired...
What is future for me now? Who is willing to hear me out?
Feeling rather blues these few days. I'm not under stress at work. Instead my work is pretty smooth with a group of friendly colleagues and a nice Boss to work with.
I felt really bad after finding out facts that I never do. Had a dispute with him last night before each of us turned in with a black face. I felt really bad. And I was crying in my dream. But words are hard to be spoken.
All these while we are talking happily about settling down, saving for our big day, planning etc. But on the other hand, my family problems and me being jobless for 2 months was sucking up most of him finance and he never mention about it. I felt so guilty. And my unreasonable mother was still being so hard to please in all ways. What can I do? What is the best sloution? No one is there to talk to about my problem.
Things at home are seriously getting from bad to worse day after day. And the misunderstanding between my mum and me are getting bigger and bigger. Is money that important when you are poor. Doesn't family love still vlaue more than that? No words to her are pleasing other throwing her with stack and stack of dollar notes now. Her words are piercing my heart time after time. Why can't she face the mirror and see how much she had changed over these year? I am really tired of tolerating her attitude. Aches in my heart are increasing. I am so tired...
What is future for me now? Who is willing to hear me out?
