Penny of Thought

Such a long break that I am losing count of the days. Finally in another week plus I will be putting on my fighting gears to get back to the working war.

The big day is getting nearer and I somehow feel so unprepared. Mum was going through her clothes and asking me which is good to wear for my ROM. It is so funny to see her getting so excited.

As for me, my gown is well altered finally. Joyee the coordinater was so shocked to see my size going down so much.

I think everything are quite settled. Oh! and the next good news that I received is that Brother Edward is having his ROM on the 09 Dec! *Congrat*

So much so for the good news. Recently, I had read some stories. Human do make mistakes. But mistakes might not prove to be mistake if you are to overshine ith with guts of admitting your wrongs.

Times had proved some people action of disbelief in others so had it proven mine and the stories that had long happened and played. I had decided to let bygones be bygones...

Restless Me

After rotting at home for so long, finally I was released to the outer world for some breather! Had some sinful no-no foods.

All these while I had finished the whole series of Desperate Housewives and some other interesting shows.

Tomorrow I will be headign back to SGH for a review of my condition and at the same time, removing the staples down there. Hope it is not going to be pain.

Things are going well but my room is still as untidy. And it is drawing nearer to the big day. If you are wondering if I am excited, all I can say is that I am not. Guess I had learnt to take things easy at each owe pace.

But I do hope to see all my friends under one roof for some fun and talking!

See you all there!

Back Safe and Sound

So here is it, I'm back in front of my computer at home finally. Doctor had taken out a 20 - 30 cm big ovarian cyst from my right side. My ovaries are safe for now.

This water cyst is so huge that after it had left me, *Boo* my weight went down by almost 5kg and my big tummy was flatter!

I am not going to call this mircle but instead. something that I was made to go through by God to better judge my fuure decision. I was bed ridden on day one but forced myself to move despite of the pain due to the cut from day two.

Everything went well and I am recovering as fast as I can. How I wishI can just hit the shopping streets for shopping and more shopping.

Some words to friends:

Winnie & Angie: Thanks for visiting me. Like what I had said, I have faith in God and I prayed to him before the operation. I went into sleep with no fear for I saw Father cuddled me in his arms and praised me for being strong. I know Father hope that I will confess to him more in the future and I promise him that I will try.

Bel: Dearie, this operation I had is not what you thought it was. I had a long veritcal cut down after my belly button as the cyst was too big. But one thing to be sure, it is not cancerous... Thanks for your well wishes.

Shn: You are so not sweet anymore. Being Miss Earth Singapore 2006 and you didn't inform me! How can you be this mean *Hump* Judging from your timetable, I know you are not goikng to be able to make it to my big day, for that, I will forgive you but I hope you will do us Singaporean proud ya? I hope to catch up with you soon. Call me!

Waiting...

Felt like I am back at my work desk to do all the handover before my operation. Looking at the calendar is really not helping much.

I am not getting paid for the 4 weeks medical leave *Just too great!* And Dear INSISTED that he do not want to hold our ROM ceremony on a later date.

I am feeling pain all over myself. My left leg is beginning to feel numb. And mentally, I think I am numbed too.

Yes, the whole world is asking me to be positive. And I thank God for giving me the stubborness if not, I will not have detected it any sooner.

So much more in mind and I really do not know how to go about it. Why is my life so drama? Whatever is the case, I am blessed with a good future partner. And If not for this, I will never know that the feeling of being loved is so great.

Dear, my temper is very bad recently. And I know that it really worried you so much so that you are not sleeping well too. I promise you that I will be strong and go ahead with the operation. Thanks for being there for me in all my check-ups.

Upcoming Operation

Just got back from hospital. Had my second blood test that require 3 tubes of blood this time. Will be admitted to hospital on thursday afternoon and the operation on Friday morning.

Even through Doctor said that it is a major operation but there is nothing to fear... *Think I got to trust him...* guess after removing this 20cm cryst, I will be slimmer.

Ok... no more negative comments. I will stay positive. I think I can only say that I am looking forward to the 4 weeks MC.

MIA for the Time Being

I guess I wouldn't be able to do any new updates here for a period of time from now. Cos tomorrow will be the second day that I will be visiting SGH for my second round of checkup at the Gynac.

I guess I might be under going an operation soon after tomorrow to remove the cyst within me. It was suspended to be an ovarian cyst. I had so much in mind but I guess I will just stay positive as I had promised Dear.

May god bless me...
Goodnight...